Jesus, King of Heaven, I come before you empty handed. I know that I have nothing good to offer you. There is nothing of any value that I could give to you. I am sorry that I am always chasing after my own desires. My pride causes me to want fame, fortune and power. All the while, you tell me to seek the things that matter to you; things that are unseen.You want me to pursue you, as your Spirit leads me into love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control.
You know that my old nature desires things that are contrary to your will, but I have died to my old nature and I want to live for you. As I am led through life by your Spirit, please allow your light to shine through me, not for my sake, but for the sake of my community. The world tells me that I can affect this community most by accumulating power and influence and by making changes in the systems that man has built. On the other hand, you tell me to stop trying to obtain influence and to work at being a servant. Help me to remember that you are sovereign. You raise people up, and you remove them from the seat of leadership. I want to wait on you. Wherever you put me, it is my heart’s desire to serve you first and then to serve my fellow man. At the end of a long day, I want to rest in you, knowing that you are God.
My heart breaks for this community. We are all looking for satisfaction from the things that this world has to offer and deep down inside we know that we will not find it on this earth.
How then do we find the fulfillment that our hearts desire? You promise us satisfaction if we hunger and thirst for righteousness. Holy Spirit, please lead me into righteous living. Help me to put the things in my life in the right order. You are The King. Help me to find my satisfaction in the blessings that you pour down. I am satisfied! I do bathe in your grace Glorious King! Help me to desire to be a servant of your people. Again take away my pride. I reject the ideas that Satan puts in my heart that lead me down the road of self promotion and worldly attainment. Help me to pursue one thing… the advancement of your kingdom. Firmly establish your kingdom in my heart first. Then, allow me and my fellow soldiers to breach Satan’s walls and increase your kingdom in this community.
We are in a spiritual battle and your tactics are unconventional. You order me to be merciful and gracious. You tell me to pursue peace with my neighbor.
I want people to love me when I am in pain. I want forgiveness when I screw up. I can see how mercy and grace are effective tactics. Help me to recognize the pain in others. It is easy for me to see their shortcomings. It is easy for me to be judgemental. I need your eyes so that I can understand the pain that exists, and I need your heart so that I can dispense your grace to those who are injured and brought close to death by the lies of Satan.
It is easy for me to love my family and friends. You order me to love my enemies. Work in my heart so that I am willing to pray for people who persecute me. Give me the courage to heartily and warmly greet the people that I know are talking behind my back. You love them unconditionally. I am your soldier. I am your son. I want to emulate you, my father and king. I want to love the people in this community the way you do.
It is okay if the slaves of Satan’s world persecute me. Of course that is what they are going to do. I am an invader in Satan’s domain; he wants to destroy me. His minions believe his lies, they are blind to the truth and don’t know what they are doing. Forgive them Lord and lead them into your redemption. Besides, what can they do? If they kill me, I immediately leave this barren land and enter your presence fully. What a gift. My death would glorify you, your soldiers would be more firmly established in their faith and your kingdom would grow. There is no downside.
As for now, I am content being your soldier behind enemy lines. You give me glimpses of your glorious kingdom everyday and it encourages me to keep fighting on. But, more importantly I have a hope for the future. I trust your promises. I cling to them knowing some day my reward will be great in heaven. I am your son, an heir to your kingdom. I cannot wait to look into your eyes and be comforted. I will rest in your arms. Then, I will venture out into your domain and I will be completely satisfied. You also promise that I will inherit the Earth. I am not sure what that will look like, but I know it is true.
So, King Jesus, today let my service be effective for you. Everyone in this community needs your redemption. We desperately seek your grace. Let the people of this community see you and give them faith so that they may also enter into your promised land and experience the rest that only you can provide. Amen.
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Walkin’ The Path with God
By Tawni Palin
In the last two years, I’ve been thinking and pondering on Paths. What path am I supposed to be walking? Why does it feel like my life is a series of bends in the road? Paths come in so many descriptions. Some are wide and paved; others could be narrow winding through a woodland scene.
Famous Poet Robert Frost wrote The Road Not Taken. The narrator talks about how he had to decide which road to take along his way, and he chose the road less traveled. He does mention that he would like to know where the other led, “Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back,” (Frost, 1916). The audience isn’t told where the road led the narrator, but I hope that it was some grand adventure that God had marked especially for him, a path that he would never regret.